As I look ahead at this week, I'm utterly overwhelmed. Sitting here on Monday, having just finished my lunch, I find that I'm simply frustrated over the lack of my ability to stay on top of the things that must happen this day (let alone the long list of items to cover the rest of the week). You see, we're leaving for vacation Saturday morning. I have about 2 weeks of work to cover in 1 - we're moving in less than a month, and the packing is not happening fast enough - the house needs cleaned (partly because I like to return from vacation to a clean home) - and, I have to pack for vacation and get any last minute needed items! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH! OK - that feels better.
Actually, I'm seeing the problem already. I'm trying to accomplish MY agenda. Sounds reasonable right? Well, for many people it is, but for me, it's not acceptable. I've committed to living each day for God. I'm here to fulfill His purpose - not mine. I'm relying on my abilities, which are very weak, to accomplish a list of items, and I haven't even entrusted them to the Lord yet. Then, when I think of these "worries" that I'm dealing with today, I see how selfish I'm being. I'm worried about getting everything done before leaving for vacation, and yet there are so many people that won't even get a vacation this year. I think of my friends Liz* and Dave* who have 6 children and Dave* lost his job over 4 months ago. I think of my friend Catherine* who is suffering with a broken heart over a failed marriage. I think of sweet Kate McCrae sitting in an Arizona hospital dealing with a brain tumor:
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mcraekate. WOW - OK - I'm humbled once again. Thank you God! Even if my "worries" are very real, my perspective is just a bit dim right now. With the strength that only comes from God, I choose to redirect my plans to accommodate His purpose, knowing that as long as He remains in first place, everything that needs to happen will happen prior to Saturday!
Proverbs 19:21 "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails."
*name changed to protect identity