Wednesday, August 3, 2011

13 Weeks



13 weeks today:

- My husband's lifeless body was found in the woods, a result of his own suicide.

- My husband was completely healed of any mental illness and anguish that took over in his final days, as He entered the gates of heaven and the arms of Jesus.

- I discovered the depth of my life's greatest sorrow.

- I learned how loved I am by those closest to me, as they cared for my broken heart and broken spirit.

- Life, as I knew it, stopped.

Now, 13 weeks later:

- My own body is regaining life...little by little.

- I am being healed of mental anguish and unspeakable grief...again, little by little, and I know this will be a lifelong process.

- I continue to feel the depth of my life's greatest sorrow daily.

- While I continue to feel the love of friends, God remains most active in caring for my broken heart and broken spirit.

- Life, as I know it, is changing...is scary...is painful...is brief...is mine to live to fulfill God's purpose, and His purpose alone.

I miss you so much Chris. My heart aches for you. I love you deeply. I can't wait to see you again! Come quickly Lord Jesus!

3 comments:

  1. Leah, Praying continued healing and peace for you today. Hugs to you.

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  2. My heart breaks for yours. But thankful that you serve a God who restores. I'll be it seems like only yesterday at times and at others like you.'ve been living in this chapter far to long already. Prayers for you continue.

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  3. You are awesome mommmy!!!!

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